1. |
Postin' In Galena
03:42
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Hudson:
They’re all just postin’ in Galena
rockin’ their prospects and demeanor.
These dirty captions
make ‘em look so much cleaner.
Everyone’s postin’ in galena
brag ‘n they boast about good feelings.
Paxton:
I tagged myself with tom cruise.
Simon
I took a pic of my step-dad nude.
Hudson:
For every post, and every like,
allows their conscience to sleep at night.
With every comment, and every share,
let them see who truly cares?
Paxton:
Make way, make way!
Oh, gorgeous. Now pose on the bed, and
show off that birthday sash.
Aurora:
But it’s not my birthday.
Paxton:
It is if you want two hundred likes.
Aurora:
Well, okay.
Paxton:
Hmm... do you have more concealer?
Aurora:
Uh, no. can you just try a filter?
Paxton
I guess.
Casey:
Babe, people like your pics because they know
you. cuz you’re real.
Paxton:
People don’t want real, Casey. They want
someone they can aspire to be.
Aurora:
Yeah, I’d rather just show the fans what they
wanna see.
There’s nothing wrong,
with this feeling of floating on air.
With every song that we’re singing keeps,
us without a care.
And to prolong these emotions,
I’d kill before share.
I’ll post again, so I know,
I would never go there!
Hudson:
Wow! Gym class. Physical exertion. Am I right
or am I left?
Vinnie:
We don’t have P.E. until next period, dude.
Hudson:
Yeah, no... this is from lookin’ at Mrs. Pedroza
all class. what a fine fox.
Simon:
Bro, she’s like seventy-four years old.
Hudson:
Yeah... that’s- what I like. it was so hot when
she dropped her I.V. during the lecture.
Simon:
Gross.
Hudson:
A cell phone crowd, huh? What’s the big deal
with texting all the time, anyway?
I’m alone in the house and I heard a crash,
maybe I should facetime the police!
Hudson:
We’re just tryin’ in galena
post we’re fine, and they’ll believe it,
We’re just hoping that the feelin’ stays
but know that we’ll delete it.
Everyone’s prayin’ in galena,
that we’ll stay the way they see us.
Rachel:
I photoshopped my dad cheatin’ on my mom!
Casey:
I outed brad right before prom!
Aurora/Hudson
With every post, and every like,
allows our conscience to sleep at night.
Then every comment, and every share,
lets us see who truly cares!
Instrumental
Students:
There’s nothing wrong,
with this feeling of floating on air.
With every song that we’re singing
keeps us without a care.
Hudson:
And to defend,
these emotions that make people stare,
I’ll post again till someone will
see that I’m there.
Mr. Starlson:
You know, Hudson. You don’t need
technology. I think your genuinity can shine
brighter than any phone screen. And at least
your light won’t lead to neck pains, sleep
problems, and depression.
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2. |
Underrated
02:48
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Aurora:
I can’t see past my screen
And I'm not sure what that means
Is it me, it is me?
And they say I can be rude
Is it just my attitude?
Or am I just feeling broken?
You ever feel like you’re
Underrated?
Overworked,
and not appreciated?
If I could see
The beauty inside me
is it hard for you to just remind me
Insecure
This selfie for
All of those I let down again
And my words come out so weird
Do I only see with fear?
And how I hate to be alone
You ever feel
Like you’re complicated
Overlooked,
Underappreciated
If I could see
This beauty inside me
is it me
And why am I still hiding?
Please answer
I’m alone
and I know
you can save me
I can’t
hear but
I will still be there
And promise that I will care
You ever lean
On the stimulation?
Undertook
You're just a situation.
If I could see
The beauty inside me
It’s not my fault
If you just don’t remind me?
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3. |
Embarrassed for You
03:44
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Aurora:
You’re... authentic?
Paxton:
Notes with compliments on them? Ha! This is
pathetic.Right aurora?
Aurora:
...yeah, I’m embarrassed for you.
Paxton:
Don’t know about you but I’m uneasy.
Don’t say it’s not true, yeah we’re all uncomfy.
You tell your life, tell us your lies,
are you this unaware?
Your spilt emotional inventory
and no one freakin’ cares.
I’m not embarrassed for me, me, me.
I’m embarrassed for you, you, you.
It’s all the things that you say, say, say
Oh it’s cringey too.
Pick this off of your ‘feelings’ list,
none of us are therapists.
Take all these whiney tones,
and leave us alone, nerd.
Don’t look at me like I’m fake and cruel
I'm reppin' what we all think at school.
Oh I don't lie, I say what's there
and it's, so amusing.
You're not like me, hypocrisy
It's desperate and confusing.
Paxton/Students:
I’m not embarrassed for me, me, me.
I’m embarrassed for you, you, you.
It’s all the things that you say, say, say,
that aren’t even true.
I’m not embarrassed for me, me, me.
I’m embarrassed for you, you, you.
It’s all the things that you say, say, say,
that aren’t even true.
Instrumental
I know you probably want to see,
that someone here, has empathy.
It's blissful to be ignorant
and be like us, just less!
Paxton:
Hey Simon!
Simon:
What’s up?
Paxton:
This kid is kronkin’ out creepy notes to
everyone just to get your attention! Have you
got yours yet, or is he saving it for a special
moment?
Simon:
(reads)
Deep down I know you really care about
people and their feelings.
Students:
LAMEEE!
Paxton / Students
I’m not embarrassed for me, me, me.
I’m embarrassed for you, you, you.
I just don’t bel-ee lee leave
It's too sad to be true.
I’m not embarrassed for me, me, me.
I’m embarrassed for you, you, you.
I just don’t bel-ee lee leave
It's too sad to be true-ooo.
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4. |
Would That Be Too Much?
02:58
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Simon:
Hudson! This is all just... too much! It’s always
just too much with you.
Hudson:
Is it too much?
To ask for another guy.
To let read me his journal,
and together we can cry.
Why is it too much?
Just to borrow a hand.
When I cross a two-way street,
does that make me not a man?
How hard would it be?
For you just to talk to me?
Just wanna know what it takes
to ask how I am, without any stakes.
I’m just scared and confused and stuff
wondering the halls shouldn’t be so tough
feeling tired and out of touch
I just need a friend
would that be too much?
Simon:
You want someone
to sing to you before bed.
You listen to Hannah Montana
instead of Grateful Dead.
I’m telling you bro
it’s weird and such.
Being your girlfriend,
it’s just too much.
How hard would it be?
for you not to dissect me?
Just want to know what it takes
not to go for ice cream,
but order some steaks.
You’re just feeling emotional stuff
I don’t think ken had to deal with this much.
Stop sending pics of you growing scruff
I wanna be alone,
you’re being too much.
Hudson:
Where can I go?
To find someone that will know?
Someone that also feels,
and strikes some sort of deal?
Why must it be, is there something wrong with me?
Who could I find?
Please help me change my mind!
I’m just scared and confused and stuff
wandering the halls shouldn’t be so tough.
Feeling tired and out of touch -
I just want a friend, would that be too much?
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5. |
Hey Hudson
03:00
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Aurora:
Hudson, I hope that you’re well.
I’d do anything to tell you
that you are just really sweet,
It’d be cool if we could meet.
But circumstances
keep us bland.
I just hope you understand
If it’s not my face
you’ll have to see.
You’ll have to see.
Hey, Hudson
you might be confused.
If I could be,
or if I could choose.
Who I am,
and what.
I could be.
Maybe now i’m really sweet.
Maybe now I’m really kind
or just something just in between,
something I won’t try to hide.
Maybe I'm a little strong.
Maybe I'm a little tough
or maybe I'm just thinking lies,
I'm not enough.
I'm not enough.
Hey Hudson,
I think that you’re cool.
My name is Terri,
I’m not at your school!
Here’s
What I see
You’re
not too much for me.
I’m just not enough,
I’m not enough.
I’d rather be anyone
that’s not me.
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6. |
To Be Deep
03:13
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Hudson:
I don’t know. Just wanna know more about
your perspective... This is liberty to rant, go off,
tell me all about Delaware!
Aurora:
Delaware, yeah, it’s really great!
I’m over here living’ in the… first state.
I grew up next to, uh- Joe Biden!
He was nice but a little bit frightening.
He and I used to uh- harvest, corn!
Yep, in D.E, where I was born.
Let me tell you about this garden state,
Hold on, that’s jersey- wait, - no wait!
Hudson:
I just wanna be -
Open, yeah!
You, with me.
Looking for a friendship,
that's not cheap.
And I wouldn't mind,
to take the leap.
To be deep?
To be deep?
To be deep!
Wow, you can paint a picture pretty
it sounds like such a realistic city.
But, what about it captures your heart?
Like, how did your first connection start?
Aurora:
My connection, what a funny story.
The dart bus ends at Fifth and Lori?
But if I paid, transit around me.
I think I'd end up in...Sussex County?
I just can't see,
what more does he want from me?
Every morning and before I sleep,
this man emotes things by the heap.
Am I letting myself get lost?
What, does it cost?
To be deep?
To be deep?
TO BE DEEP!
Instrumental
Hudson:
Terri, I don't mean to rush.
I'm told, I can be too much.
But really, I just wanna be,
there for you like you've been me.
Aurora:
Why must I?
Always be.
What the heck, is wrong with me?
I know that you're not a creep.
I just can't be...deep.
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7. |
Putting It Out There
01:18
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Simon:
Listen, dude, bud, bro.
I’ve been thinkin’ and I think you should know.
That, man, boi, homie, mate.
We haven’t hung in awhile, and that
doesn’t feel...!
Just puttin’ it out there,
just spittin’ some facts.
Don’t know how to say it-
but I want you...
Listen bro, bud, dude.
I’m tryin’ to tell you,
and not be a prude.
That pal, boss, brother, brah
I haven’t seen you, makes me feel like- ah-
Just layin it down,
putting it on the line,
I don’t know how to say it
but I’m not feeling so-
Look, person, male, fellow,
I want to be here for you
But I just can’t tell oh-
Oh, my god. It’s coming out queer.
But I want to be a better person in your life-
You hear?
I’m puttin’ it out there,
that I was wrong.
And I’ll be a better friend
from now on.
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8. |
As Far as They Can See
02:30
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Aurora:
Mom, why would I take any advice from the last person I would ever, want to be like?
Denise:
Three inches high
know when to smile, and not to cry.
Two inches down
gotta be a princess to wear a crown.
And now they wanna be ya,
from Mr. scrooge to Jojo Siwa!
Get up and try again
from charming boys to attracting men.
As far as they can see,
you’ve got no personality.
So let’s get up and go,
we'll prove that we’re worth a show.
Two inches, welp!
You'd get better reviews on yelp.
It's work for hire,
good for one job but not always desired.
If you think this is cruel,
wait till you sign up for my school.
You can get all the guys,
our vocab word is compromise.
As far as I can see
you need a personality.
So let’s get up and go,
it's talent time at the beauty show.
Aurora you just know I'm,
only trying to repair.
Mistakes and decisions,
you never wanted to share.
But believe me sweetie,
I can fix your worth.
If you only trust me girl,
like the first day after your birth!
As far as they can see,
you'll need a personality.
So let's get up and go,
and give them one good final show.
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9. |
Hey Hudson Reprise
01:40
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Aurora:
Hey Hudson,
I think that I'm scared.
If I lose you,
I won't be prepared.
Here's what I see,
A brand new me.
And for the first time,
I see me.
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10. |
Socially Inept
05:08
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Mr, Starlson:
Well since you all know each other SO well,
why don't we play a little game?
I can give you your phones back if you can name,
one fact about each other.
Welcome class! To a lesson in decency.
Instead of our usual plan,
because I’m completely in shock,
watching fires of social inneptitude.
It's time for you all to have a new attitude.
I’ve taught here five years and I’ve seen enough,
of the damage that’s been done by you all.
You cheat, steal, shame, and laugh,
watching your fellow man and woman fall.
In the time that you’ve been here there’s a body count,
trailing from your backs and staining the walls.
No matter what empire you’ve built there’s no doubt
there’s a knife waiting for Ceasar to fall.
But still you think you float above the crowds? Well,
It's time to get your heads, out of the clouds.
You're socially inept and there’s a lot to address,
but take this chance to clean your cataclysmic mess.
I wish you could see through your hypocrisy,
it's time to walk like a person, not a queen.
Mr. Starlson:
Casey and Vinnie.
Casey:
Vinnie loves to go out and... pee in public?
Vinnie?
I do like to nourish the plants. and Casey likes
to... uh, ANNOY people.
Casey:
My dad does say I’m like a human pimple that
can’t be popped.
Mr. Starlson:
You treat, all of your friends like dolls
twisting limbs every way your desire.
You shame, mock, laugh and point
while you're the one who's stoking the fire.
And your superficial friends won't,
stay to the end, so much for all those empty transactions.
Stitching lies on your body to fit their looks,
I guess denial is the season of fashion.
Pining as much as everybody else,
you're no better than those you say that this helps.
You’re socially inept, leaving you up with no rest.
Staring at screens, praying to see answers that’ll never be.
Since you never took the very first basic step,
a bit of honesty might just be what we need.
Simon:
Yeah, uh, Paxton. there’s a lot about her that
I’ve learned through the times.
She likes to wear a lot of red, and I think is a...D-cup?
Paxton
I'm gonna hit you in the D-cup!
Mr. Starlson
Ugh, Paxton?
Paxton:
Okay, so I know that -
(murmurs) likes skating.
Simon:
Excuse me?
Paxton:
You like skating.
Simon:
Paxton. We’ve been in class together for four years.
What is my name?
Paxton:
I- uh, know my boi, Azul anywhere!
Mr. Starlson:
Tell me one more thing, are you really happy?
Are your lives as perfect as they say they look?
Here’s what I need learned so badly,
This toxic way of life will ruin all of you
Aurora:
Umm... hmm... I feel like Hudson is very- to himself.
Quiet, but caring, very focused on what he wants.
Mr. Starlson:
Thank you Aurora, that was very sweet. Hudson?
Hudson:
Uh, huh. I mean, you smell pretty good...I guess.
Mr. Starlson:
Now you may all be skeptics, but I hope you change your way
before you lose the few, connections that you’ve made.
You're socially inept, this was a lot to address,
but take this chance to clean your cataclysmic mess.
I wish you could see through your hypocrisy
before you’re taken by your
before you’re taken by your
before you’re taken by your social guillotine.
Was that was forty-five minutes!? Jeez, that
Adderall really works fast, doesn't it?
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11. |
I Will Be There
05:08
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Aurora:
Never knew how this would go,
something I have never known.
They don’t cover in the tv shows.
But now my fog is coming clear
not sure if I’ll like it here.
But i’m not ready to let it go
if I show - they will know.
I’m shaking, but I will stay.
I’m scared, but I won’t run away.
The sound of your voice, can drown out my fears.
If you will be there,
I will be here. I will be here.
Hudson:
Do you ever feel like you need to earn care?
like- you know people don’t naturally like you.
You have to do something to earn it?
Then what? What happens when you run out of stuff to give.
They don’t need anything from you anymore,
or you need something.
Then you’re just a body of needs that’s too much,
for other people to take on.
My dad wouldn’t talk to me about it,
Simon was the only one there for me.
This is my letter.
It was just a note saying I didn’t want to bother anyone anymore.
It said I...
was going to end my life.
Aurora:
I’ve been scared sometimes. But I’m still around.
We’re around. It means we’re strong, right?
Weak people don’t have struggles and keep going...so we won.
Hudson:
The only I ever won was a VHS at my dad’s yard sale.
Aurora
What’s a VHS?
Hudson:
So maybe you, are scared to dance.
I guess tonight, I'll take that chance.
Learn to trust, a simple melody.
Just listen close, it takes a while.
I'll look away and hope you'll smile.
A subtle change will come on subtly.
I'm hoping, you're not far away.
I'll ask you, oh please Terri stay.
The sound of your voice,
makes everything clear.
If you will be there,
I will be here.
I will be here.
Instrumental
Aurora:
Hudson? Hudson!
Hudson:
How far are you willing to go, Aurora?
Aurora:
Huh? What are you talking about?
Hudson:
If you really care about me, you wouldn’t lie to me.
Aurora:
I’m lying to you because I care, Hudson,
I don’t want you to be alone!
Hudson:
If you know how it feels to be with someone
and feel alone, why did you do it to me?
Aurora:
I don’t know.
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12. |
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Aurora:
Paxton, if you tell anyone about this,
I'm going to post about your eating disorder.
You hate being real, that’s as real as it gets.
Paxton:
You wouldn’t.
Aurora:
Don't out me for being fake and lying.
I think we both know who's really trying.
Right, Pax?
Tell us your lies, hide in the drama,
just to not feel bad.
You point to me, hypocrisy
it's pretty, freaking sad.
I’m not embarrassed for me, me, me.
I’m embarrassed for you, you, you.
It’s all the things that you say, say, say,
that aren’t even true.
Sure, you probably need to hide,
from everything you feel inside.
Take all your worries, feelings and stress,
and be like us, just show a lot- less.
Paxton:
You’re the fakest of them all.
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13. |
Authenticity
05:05
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Aurora:
I don’t know if you realized Hudson,
but people like fake.
I’m not trying to be some needy codependent person
that no one wants around.
Hudson:
Like me?
Look, I get it. Sometimes being fake is good.
But I recently met someone who taught me that
being real is even better.
Aurora:
Yeah? I bet whoever told you that is just using you.
I bet she’s fake.
Hudson:
I don’t know. She’s pretty genuine to me.
They seem to think reality,
is cold and dark hypocrisy.
But all we claim to be,
is beautifully a part of we.
Aurora:
How genuine do you think this "friend" of yours is?
Hudson
She’s trying, though. And that’s as genuine as it gets.
My heart rate will rise, I’ll take more step.
I look to her eyes, but she’s not ready yet.
No one compares,
I’m falling up stairs,
Forgive me for caring at all,
but she is real to me.
Aurora:
And if she’s not who she says she is?
Hudson:
You don’t have to say who you are to someone
that really knows you.
Authenticity,
don’t let me down.
I’m showing myself and they're letting me down.
I’m holding out hope
so that I can be proud!
Aurora:
I bet she’s lying to you.
Hudson:
I don’t think so, I would know.
Aurora:
Everyone lies, though. She could be really good at it.
Hudson:
I’m not saying she doesn’t lie. I just think it’s not to me.
Aurora:
They seem to think that fairytales
are endless rides down empty trails.
But I'm seeing the brighter side,
and be ready to take that ride.
Hudson:
Yeah, well leaving your comfort zone will
always feel like it’s too much.
But the authenticity will always be worth it.
Aurora:
My heart rate will rise, I’m too scared to step.
I wanna take my time, but they're just so set.
I never would dare,
I’m shaking and scared,
forgive me for telling you.
I don’t wanna be real.
Authenticity,
don’t fail me now.
I’m losing myself, yet I wanna be found.
I’m holding out hope
so that I can be proud.
I’m screaming alone,
and my voice is so loud!
Aurora/Hudson
It’s just a voice in me,
I bury oh so deep.
And when i try to breathe,
the air gets trapped inside of me.
And all I wanna be
got locked away so silently.
And when I try to see,
I lose my genuinity.
Aurora/Hudson
Authenticity,
don’t fail me now.
I’m losing myself yet I wanna be found.
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14. |
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Ensemble:
There's something wrong, with this feeling of
floating on air.
With every word, that we're preaching gives
us so many shares.
Can we pretend, these emotions were
never in there.
I'll post again, so I know!
I won't need them to care.
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15. |
The Blame Game
04:14
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Aurora:
Dear diary,
so I am have gotten myself into a bit of a...
predicament.
So my life is kind of complicated,
I may or may not have catfished this guy at my school.
Ensemble:
Let's pick our fight, in this terrible game.
We flip the light, and we turn up the shame.
And no one wins, but we like to play.
We laugh and grin just to make them, go away.
Aurora:
Hudson, he didn't have a lot of friends
and seemed kind of...lonely.
Naturally, I reached out and
wanted to give him so company.
Hudson:
How hard will it be
for you to forgive me?
If I didn't move,
I would take the fall.
This time it's me,
now I'm whose at fault.
I ran too fast and lost it all.
Instrumental
Ensemble:
Let's pick our fight, in this terrible game.
We flip the light, and we turn up the shame.
And no one wins, but we like to play.
We laugh and grin just to make them, go away.
Aurora:
But I didn't realize he was so invested in our relationship,
long story short...I may have accidentally led him on.
Terri now is all I see,
Am I her or is she me?
Can I see who's on my screen?
Or is it time for me to come clean?
A picture's worth a thousand cries,
now I'm stuck with all the lies.
Maybe now it's time to show,
oh Hudson, please don't go!
Instrumental
Aurora:
So now people are starting to think
that I was doing this for me.
That I...like him back!
Could you imagine?!
Denise:
As far, as I can see
there is no real other way.
Just change, the way you speak
and the rules we chose to play.
Cause we have just one life
so we might as well have fun.
Just take the tip from me you see,
a hero and a mom.
We all, will make mistakes
but your flaws are not our concern.
Don't tell me why!
Secrets and lies!
Oh these kids, they will never learn!
Ensemble:
Cause life, is simply,
one big joke.
You live, you laugh,
you blow up smoke.
You share the news,
life you are woke.
But really it's all shadowed cloak.
We hide our demons deep within,
so no one tries to cop a win.
Bury deep and out of sight,
our feelings are like kryptonite.
Don't blame, the game!
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16. |
Help Yourself
04:10
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Denise:
Oh yes, it’s very clear now,
it’s very clear what you must do.
If you save yourself,
they can’t take any of you.
We didn’t make the game but
it doesn’t mean we can’t pursue,
if we just strike first,
they’ll be the first to lose it.
But I cannot help you
if you can’t help yourself
and no I,
just cannot help you
if you don’t wanna be back on top.
High school is hard
but reality is harder.
Disguise yourself,
just to play the game smarter
It’s them or you
and there's only one, raft around.
Oh, what to do?
Let em' sink so you, don't drown.
Aurora:
Yeah... yeah. I’m protecting myself.
Not my fault if people get hurt.
Denise:
There we go, now let’s work with it.
Get a story together, make sure we get everyone you
know on your side.
Aurora:
Oh yeah it’s very clear now
it’s very clear who I must be.
I can save myself
they can’t take that from me, no.
We didn’t make the game but
it doesn’t mean we can’t pursue.
If we just strike first,
they’ll be the first to lose.
But I can't help him
if he can’t help himself.
And no I,
just cannot help him
and I won’t.
I wanna be back on top!
Oh, life is hard.
Denise:
But reality is harder.
Aurora:
I found myself,
now I play the game, smarter.
Denise:
It’s them or you
and there is only one, raft around.
Oh, what to do?
Let em' sink so you, don't drown.
Paxton:
What’s going on?
Aurora:
I felt so bad about earlier,
I owe you an apology.
The reason I was being so distant
was because I was embarrassed.
Simon sent me this note Hudson wrote un-prompted,
probably to get sympathy.
Paxton:
That like, a suicide note?
Aurora:
Yeah, but like he wouldn’t actually do anything,
it was from a long time ago.
We should totally post this onto Instagram,
I bet it’d get the most clout, more than that other pic.
Denise:
High school is hard
but reality is harder.
Disguise yourself
just to play the game smarter.
It’s them and you
there’s a tiger in your cage
Oh what to do?
But to push em' to, the gates!
Aurora:
I’m, finally seeing clear.
And I won’t go down, I'll make it out of here
And I won’t care what they say
It’s a game I’ll gladly play.
And if they get in my way
I’ll finally take them down a peg!
Now let's go
make, life so hard
but reality much harder.
I found myself
now I play the game smarter.
It’s him or me
and I’m ready for the end.
Oh, what to do?
but get rid of my only friend.
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17. |
My Own Company
03:48
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Aurora:
Guys, it’s HUDSON! We hate him! Come on.
Paxton:
You don’t think he would...?
Aurora:
What? No way he would actually...
No. There’s no way.
Hudson:
Don't ask how I am,
if you don't want to know.
I try to hold on,
but I'm letting go.
I don't always know,
what they want me to hear.
Fighting myself in fear.
Maybe they'll care,
if the sun doesn't rise.
Maybe they'll see,
if they close their eyes.
One day they'll know,
it will all be clear.
One day they'll wake up,
and I won't be here.
But what's in the dark,
please tell me why, can't I see.
And where is the light,
is it locked away just out of sight?
I'm lost in the crowd,
do they see me around?
I'm alone in my own, company.
Instrumental
It's time to leave,
if that's how it goes.
I won't even speak,
I'm singing alone.
I always believed,
in what people say.
Since who wants to live,
that way.
Maybe I'll care,
when the sun doesn't rise.
Can I be brave,
open up my eyes.
When will I know,
and see past my fears?
I'm not alone, I can see so clear.
Now I'm in the dark,
but I can see the way out.
I'm stuck looking back,
can I live with all thid fear and doubt.
I'm lost in the crowd, and I think I might drown.
I'm alone in my own company.
I'm alive but I just don't feel it.
Out of hope so I came to steal it.
Even though I will never be the same.
I'm not alone!
Here we go, here we go.
Be a friend, I wish to know.
I never have to be alone.
I'm enough on my own,
I'm enough on my own,
I'm here in my own company.
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18. |
Sissy Man
02:56
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Paxton:
Jaqueline Ritter is the reason I am the way I
am.
Simon:
Yeah. If our friends didn’t pick on us growing
up, we wouldn’t have to do it to others.
So it’s their fault!
They always used to hang out,
back at my school.
Tom, Jack, and Harry Trout
they were so cool.
When I asked to join in,
they said you coy!
People that open up like that,
they're called, SISSY BOYS!
They always called me sissy boy,
no that's not me.
Maybe cause I like to sit,
down when I pee.
They always called me sissy boy,
when I say I'm sad.
No I'm not a sissy boy,
I'm a sissy man!
Instrumental
Paxton:
So it’s not our fault!
It’s everyone else's!
So... Now it’s starting to feel like we’ve been
treating people the way we were treated.
Simon:
The golden rule!
Paxton:
That’s not the golden rule. It just means we are
somewhat responsible for causing this.
Simon:
No way. I was not like that. All I did was tell
Hudson he too much.
Dang. It was us.
Paxton:
Maybe it’s not too late.
Simon:
You think?
Paxton:
They always called me funny girl,
was never okay.
I always used to laugh it off,
just to fit in.
They always called me funny girl,
to stop me from blooming.
If you ask me again I'll say,
I'm a funny woman!
Paxton/Simon:
There's something bout this stupid life,
that makes it so keen.
There's something super safe about,
being so mean.
But if I could be hot rich,
and stunning.
I'd rather be dumb stupid,
sissy and funny!
Simon:
Yeah!
Paxton:
Okay?
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19. |
Is It Me?
03:44
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Aurora:
If I won the game,
Why am I so empty?
I just can not find
if I had crossed a line.
When you win the game,
always remember.
Nobody really wins
Just tuck away the sins.
Is it me?
Or is this just how I see?
There are things I can’t control
if he’s fine, well I don’t know.
Can it be?
All The words I never said.
Now His life was left unread,
will it all come back to me?
And I play again
I lose my only friends.
Trying to stay the same,
but I will win the game.
Will this ever change?
The world’s conditioning?
Nobody’s listening.
Is it your fault or mine?
Is it me?
Is it just the air I breathe?
There are things I don’t control,
if he’s gone, I'll let it go.
Is that me?
I don’t choose what I believe.
Some things I will never share,
now he won't know that I do care.
I won the game
I gave what I’ve gotten.
My heart's feeling rotten
and now I’m the one to blame.
But now I have to be
the strength that no one sees.
It’s more than coming clean
and it’s saving more than me.
It was me!
It was who that I became.
And I’m more than just a name
and There’s more I need to change.
I believe!
That it’s never far too late.
To repair a broken fate,
and to save the ones you see.
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20. |
I Will Be There Reprise
01:30
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Aurora:
I...I was jealous.
I wanted to be like him,
I want everyone to be like him.
And I want to start today.
Didn't think I was so deep,
till I started, losing sleep.
Thinking bout what you have,
done for me.
If I could turn, the other way.
And take back a single day.
I would thank you for changing me.
I'm lonely, for goodness sake.
And hey Hudson, I made a mistake.
I took you for granted,
and it never was fair.
I wasn't there,
I wasn't there.
I wasn't there.
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21. |
How Far Would We Go?
03:12
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Paxton:
Well, do you forgive her, Hudson!?
Hudson:
New me, something I could never be.
Because of this space,
this terrible place.
It all went through me.
Aurora:
Though we, get abused by the journey.
Forget all our names,
in this terrible game.
What I could be.
Aurora/Hudson:
How far would we be willing to go?
Just to show we're fine.
How long till we don't even know?
When we cross a line.
Why can't I step outside
and say what I mean.
When will take the dive,
finally coming clean.
Can I lose the game,
and save my name?
Rachel:
So everything’s solved completely now, right?
We’re over technology and now we’re going to
be open and honest about all of our emotions
with perfect communication?
Simon:
Reasons, it's the fault of the season.
If I find myself lost,
could I handle the cost?
Or will I stay gone?
Paxton:
Through me, getting hit by the journey.
But I won't be the same,
I'll rewrite my name.
What could I be?
Paxton/Simon:
How far would we be willing to go?
Just to show we're fine.
How long till we don't even know?
When we cross a line.
Hudson/Aurora/Paxton/Simon
Why can't I step outside
and say what I mean?
When will I take the dive?
Finally coming clean.
Can I lose the game and save my name?
When will I swallow pride
and take the loss?
What do I have to pay
to stomach the cost?
Will I comprise or can I rise?
I've tripped and I've bruised
but I will not lose.
I'm cut and I'm scared
but I am prepared.
I'm stuck in this land
but it's in my hands.
I'm done with the blame,
it's finally my game.
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22. |
Outro
01:24
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